I haven’t written in a few weeks because I’m not sure what I have to say these days…. and truthfully, I’m wallowing a little bit. Wallowing, feeling sorry for myself, just a little sad.

Okay, I have good reason for my sadness. Two of my aunts passed away a day apart, and my cousin (the daughter of one of those aunts) has been diagnosed with cancer. There is sadness these days.

Usually, I find a positive spirit, lean on friends and family, and most of all, my faith to get me through.

It’s taking me longer to find that happier place right now.

I want to be positive, so I can help support my cousin as she faces her treatments. I want to focus on the happy memories of my aunts and how blessed we all were to be part of their amazing lives.

I need to get focused, as my job right now is hectic and busy.

Yet, I find myself wallowing… it’s not a fun cycle to be in right now.

So, I’m not doing well at anything because I’m in this state of mind. I can tell I’m getting sick of it, and I think the breakthrough is coming. I can’t stay in darkness.

My aunts nor my cousin would want this.

It’s time to break out of the cycle. I’m trying to keep up with my exercising. I’m having lunch with friends, spending time with my hubby….

Hopefully, I’m almost there. Hopefully…

Do you have any words of wisdom for me?

What do you do to break out of a cycle of sadness? I’d love to hear from you.

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Rebecca Yauger

Becky is a writer and blogger. She's a three time contributor to various Chicken Soup for the Soul books and writes about real friendship and relationships, and all the ties that bond us. She's the former Web Manager and Vice-President for ACFW (acfw.com). Becky is a proud wife, mother, grandmother and 3-time cancer survivor.

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